Don't Tell Me..

• Don’t tell me ”I like you”, when you’re gonna flirt with other people.
• Don’t tell me ”I miss you”, when you’re throwing those words at other people, too.
• Don’t call me ”babe”, when you’re gonna give everybody else pet names, too.
• Don’t say ”I care”, then act like you don’t, later on.
• Don’t tell me ”I love you’’, when you’re clearly not in love.

You would not understand cutting, unless you're a cutter. You can't understand drugs unless you have done them. You can't understand depression unless you have it. So, please don't come around me saying; "there are better ways of coping"... "that is so stupid"... you know what? Fuck you, you don't know what it feels like to feel like the whole world is collapsing and the only way to escape reality is to cut, to drink, to smoke... or whatever your outlet. Don't come to me with that bullshit "you're just cutting for attention" you don't know how hard I try to hide ever single one. Its NOT for attention, its not because I'm "emo" and it's definitely NOT because I'm suicidal. It's because I'm lost, because I'm hurt, because I can control every cut, every shot of Smirnoff, every inhale... I can control all of that; while my life goes beyond crazy around me.

come with me to touch the sky :)

kidaokagee

Kayaking with Great White Sharks by Thomas Peschak.


“ To capture this image I tied myself to the tower of the research boat Lamnidae and leaned into the void, precariously hanging over the ocean while waiting patiently for a white shark to come along. I wanted to shot a photograph that would tell the story of our research efforts to track white sharks using kayaks.”

sweet conversation

Girl: Hi :) 
Boy: Hey. 
Girl: I heard you like somebody. 
Boy: Yeah, yeah. 
Girl: Ooh, who is it? 
Boy: I'm not telling. 
Girl: Fine, do I know her? 
Boy: Yeah. 
Girl: Hmm, what's she look like? 
Boy: Do you have a mirror?

and then i felt sad because i realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails  to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one. you wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened. 

i hate the feeling when you're about to cry and someone asks you if there anything wrong or to cheer up and you try to smile but you just physically can't do it and eventually the effort of trying to smile for this one person has the tears spilling over. it me feel so defeated by life when i can't find the strength to smile in those moments.

Pain makes you stronger. Tears makes you braver. Heartbreak makes you wiser. So thank the past for a better future.

life secret

You just have to learn to forget the people who forget you.

Just because I don't talk to you, doesn't mean I don't miss you. 

Enemies can let you down and bestfriends make you smile. Even its fake. But only you who knows your true feelings

He wants someone who's perfect. Ok I knew I've lots of weakness and not perfect at all. But can you tell me who is?

Damn It's True

Fall in love = Easy. Finding someone to catch me = HARD!

It's easy to cross the line from love to hate, but it's hard to cross the line back.

I rather know your dirty little secrets than to hear your dirty little lies. 

Love is so short. Forgetting is so long!

Immature LOVE = Wants a fun time. Mature LOVE = Wants a lifetime!

31 JULI 2010

:)

Why do people CHEAT and LIE?It is because they know that it is easier to get FORGIVENESS than PERMISSION.

secretlyloved

Because, you know me right? You know me so well. You know everything about me. You know my influences, what hurts me, what helps me, what haunts me. You know what I have been through, what I am going through and what I will go through, don’t you? You know all my choices and the reasons as to why
I made them, right? Listen, think what you want…when you
come and mouth off about how ridiculous or stupid or slutty or
dumb or ugly or whatever else you want to call me. But, just
remember that you don’t know half my story and you never will.

I’d rather rent a movie than go out to see one. I’d rather cook our own meal together than go to a fancy restaurant. I don’t need the expensive gifts and I don’t like those stupid dates. It’s those simple things that mean so much more to me. If the vibes are right and the feelings are there, it doesn’t matter what we do.. It just matters who we’re with. 

shorrty:

Girl: We’re best friends right?

Boy: Yes, of course.

Girl: So be honest with me, who do you like?

Boy: No one. I love someone.

Girl: Ohh, she must be very lucky.

Boy: Definitely. I’ve loved her ever since I met her.

Girl: Really? Well, since we’re best friends, I wanna meet her. Go call her.

Boy: Oh okay.

-Boy takes out his phone, dials her number and phones her-

Girl: Wait, hold on I think I’m getting a call.

-Answers the phone-

Girl: Hello?

Boy: I love you.

honest

.. I'm not a fan of Valentine's day because every second of the day I spend with you is a moment I will never forget.

A real relationship

Has fights. Has trust. Has faith. Has tears. Has hurt. Has sweet smiles.Has genuine laughter. Has snorts because of the laughter. Hasweird, stupid, unnecessary arguments. Has patience. Hascommunication. Has secrets. Has jealousy. And most importantly, love.This is all just a mess that turns out beautiful&an experience that can never be forgotten.

my secondly familiy

XII-RPLadalah keluarga kedua gw

dimana gw bisa berbagi kesenangan, kesedihan, pokoknya semuanya deh :)

nggak kerasa udah 3 tahun kita sama2.

meskipun kadang diantara kita sering ada kesalahpahaman, ribut2 kecil, kehilangan beberapa temen dikelas yang bikin kelas sepi, tapi ini yang bakal kita inget waktu kita nanti klo udah keluar dari sekolah kita tercinta *uekkk* hahaha.

dan juga udah pernah ngerasain dihukum bareng sekelas gara2 kekompakannya untuk bolos *waktu kelas XI* hahaha. ini adalah moment yang nggak bakal gw lupain hahaha

dan nggak kerasa juga bentar lagi kita bakal pisah *lulus*

semoga aja persahabatn kita nggak sampe sini aja, dan semoga ini sampe kita dewasa, punya istri/suami, punya anak cucu hahahaha

jadi pengen nangis nulisnya :'(

sometimes tears can express feelings easier than words.

I tried to move on, I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don't want me and I can't have you anymore. I tried so hard. But how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? The only person who makes you feel alive. The only reason you're still here. You just can’t let go of someone like that.

allah forever :)

When I walk away, in my head, I'm secretly hoping that you'd stop me.

i hurt and i cry, but you can't see the depression in my eyes, because i just smile.

When I say I'm not perfect, I don't say it cause I want to be told otherwise, I say it cause I truly feel it.

with every mistake 

we must surely 

be learning

My Mailbox Is Open...

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I love when I have messages in my box :) make me smile guys!

aku dan perasaanku ala XII-RPL

aslinya figih wkwkwwk

you are the 
greatest thing adventure 
of my life :)

XII-RPL Band hahaha

ihhhh nggak kerasa udah mau lulus2an :'(

nanti klo udah lulus bakal kayak gini lagi nggak ya?

bakal kumpul2 bareng lagi nggak ya?

bisa curhat2 bareng lagi nggak?

bisa gila2an lagi nggak?

nggak yangka bisa deket kayak *keluarga* gini dalam waktu 3 tahun

pasti nanti klo udah lulus bakal sibuk sama kerjaannya masing2

semoga aja kalian nggak akan lupa sama semua *kenangan waktu diskolah*

LOVE YOU ALL :)

jaman-jaman smp

jadi inget masa2 smp :'(

pengen reunian tapi nggak bisa gara2 gw disini dan mereka jauh disana *so sweet* hahaha

kapan ya bisa ketemu sama temen smp gw lagi?

kangen akohhh :(

Penghancur Persahabatan

Apa yang kita alami demi teman kadang-kadang melelahkan dan menjengkelkan, tetapi itulah yang membuat persahabatan mempunyai nilai yang indah. Persahabatan sering menyuguhkan beberapa cobaan, tetapi persahabatan sejati bisa mengatasi cobaan itu bahkan bertumbuh bersama karenanya. Persahabatan tidak terjalin secara otomatis tetapi membutuhkan proses yang panjang seperti besi menajamkan besi, demikianlah sahabat menajamkan sahabatnya. Persahabatan diwarnai dengan berbagai pengalaman suka dan duka, dihibur - disakiti, diperhatikan - dikecewakan, didengar - diabaikan, dibantu - ditolak, namun semua ini tidak pernah sengaja dilakukan dengan tujuan kebencian. Seorang sahabat tidak akan menyembunyikan kesalahan untuk menghindari perselisihan, justru karena kasihnya ia memberanikan diri menegur apa adanya. Sahabat tidak pernah membungkus pukulan dengan ciuman, tetapi menyatakan apa yang amat menyakitkan dengan tujuan sahabatnya mau berubah. Proses dari teman menjadi sahabat membutuhkan usaha pemeliharaan dari kesetiaan, tetapi bukan pada saat kita membutuhkan bantuan barulah kita memiliki motivasi mencari perhatian, pertolongan dan pernyataan kasih dari orang lain, tetapi justru ia berinisiatif memberikan dan mewujudkan apa yang dibutuhkan oleh sahabatnya. Kerinduannya adalah menjadi bagian dari kehidupan sahabatnya, karena tidak ada persahabatan yang diawali dengan sikap egoistis. Semua orang pasti membutuhkan sahabat sejati, namun tidak semua orang berhasil mendapatkannya. Banyak pula orang yang telah menikmati indahnya persahabatan, namun ada juga yang begitu hancur karena dikhianati sahabatnya. Beberapa hal seringkali menjadi penghancur persahabatan antara lain: Masalah bisnis UUD (Ujung-Ujungnya Duit) Ketidakterbukaan Kehilangan kepercayaan Perubahan perasaan antar lawan jenis Ketidaksetiaan. Tetapi penghancur persahabatan ini telah berhasil dipatahkan oleh sahabat-sahabat yang teruji kesejatian motivasinya. Mempunyai satu sahabat sejati lebih berharga dari seribu teman yang mementingkan diri sendiri. "Dalam masa kejayaan, teman² mengenal kita. Dalam kesengsaraan, kita mengenal teman² kita." Ingatlah kapan terakhir kali anda berada dalam kesulitan. Siapa yang berada di samping anda?  Siapa yang mengasihi anda saat anda merasa tidak dicintai? Siapa yang ingin bersama anda pada saat tiada satu pun yang dapat anda berikan? Merekalah sahabat² anda. Hargai dan peliharalah selalu persahabatan anda dengan mereka.

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Boy you got my heartbeat running away. Beating like a drum and it's coming your way. Can't you hear that boom badoom boom boom badoom boom bass. Yeah that's that super bass, he's got that super bass :) ♥

that was so sweet :)

Into the Wild

So recently, I watched this movie not knowing what to expect.  But it turned out to be great.
A man throws everything away.  Family, friends, money, and Harvard to go out and explore the world.  He feels poisoned by society.
This really got me thinking.  Sometimes, I feel like just throwing everything away and taking an adventure.
But I wonder…
would I be able to do that for God?

Parents

Today, I had no school.  And I did what every teenager does on a no school day.
Sleep.
But I got a phone call from my dad and he asked me if something was wrong and why I was so tired?  And if it’s ‘cause I’ve been doing something that I’m not supposed to…like drugs haha.
But it was frustrating to be asked something like that…but once I thought about it…
He was just worried.
There are parents out there that simply don’t care.
Thank God for loving parents:)

kegilaan bocah 3 RPL

i would love to ...

I’d love to watch a scary movie with you.
I’d love to be in your arms, and bury my face in your chest when I get scared.
I’d love to look up and give you a kiss on the cheek.
I’d love to do that one hundred times until we start making out. And I’d show you how much I you with my lips.
I’d love to undress you and tell you how beautiful you are to me.
I’d love to just stare at your beauty.
And then I’d love to make love to you, and show you everything I feel for with body.
And I’d absolutely love to fall asleep in your arms, and kiss you when you woke up.

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Please don’t say sweet things to a girl unless you really mean them. If you want her to fall for you, don’t do that unless you intend to catch her. If you do, you’re just going to hurt her. Do you really want to do that?

FRIENDS FOREVER

 

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now 'cause you don't have another day

'Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love, but it came too soon

And there was me and you, and then we got real glued
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule?

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

La, la, la
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever